“Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”
Wolfgang von Goethe
To blog or not to blog that has been the question for me for some time. I have put it off for far too long and today I am finally sitting down in a cafe to get started sharing what I have learnt and enjoyed on my nine year journey since becoming a mother, with the hope that someone, somewhere will benefit from what I know or feel inspired to do something similar because it feels right and good for them.
I feel that before motherhood, I was living quite unconsciously. Having children changed all that, because their needs were so immediate, so great, I had to be entirely present a lot of the time and had to delve deep emotionally, to read widely and grow. It is a journey I feel I was destined to go on ( the pregnancies happened quickly without much effort….just as well as I was quite ambivalent at times about having children because of my own childhood experiences). It was a choppy sea at times, and I often felt quite alone , but I found several life rafts in books, parenting magazines ( like Juno and The Green Parent), in inspiring blogs and in Waldorf education. Things started to fit into place and I rediscovered my creativity and joy.
I had no idea what parenting path I would follow, but my first daughter, insisted on Attachment Parenting from the very beginning, so I listened to her ( she screamed a lot, poor baby ) and read and researched a lot and there were a lot of tears – many of my own. I have always had a thirst for learning and I believe we are given our challenges for our maximum learning and sent in directions that we otherwise would not have travelled. My children have taken me on this journey through better and worse times. I still walk that path and I am still learning at every stage of their development. Sometimes i resist the teachings they give me and don’t want to look into the mirror that they are presenting me with ( their behaviour); I want to run for the hills ( sound familiar?!), but when I am fully present, I know there is much to be gained from this and I think writing this blog will mean not only will I stay present, but i will be able to share what I am learning with others who may be in similar situations and who perhaps don’t have the time to do the research or don’t have like minded folk around them.
My hope is to be of service to others through this blog just through sharing…
So here’s to new beginnings 🙂